I totally forgot about this thing.!

soo wow! soo much has change ! i still go to parties but i have to be in by 12 :) i have an amazinnnng boyfriend.xp and we have amazing sex! altho im only 17, i wish i waited but now that i did it, i love it! i still drink.... even though i got my underage. and such. my life has been going down hill for a while latly... but im trying to put it back together. piece by fucking piece. everyday seems like another hill to climb ughh, its so fucking aggravting. im starting to hate everyone around me, and i love just spending time alone. bcuz i know everytime i do spend time with others something "could" go wrong.. or i "could" say somthing that would upset just one person and idkno i just feel like living like i am for a little bit. keeping to myself, letting people do there own thing. im tired of drama. tired of trying to be "on top" because i dont think i ever got there. its sad. so many people liked me then... in a blink of an eye... people show you how they really feel. ughhh. so whatev. sorry this isn't some exciting bullshit

just a norm day. etklja

soooooooo basically i have a hickey. lmao. yeah, no worries brian was sexxxy ahahha. and it was funn. i had work today as wellll. 50 year old men hitting on me JOY. end of blog.

those nights youll never forget

hahah. sooo yesterday was basically amazing. i was planning to just go to the game with tish, mia, sam, lexi, and steph. butt with tisha perry there is never going to a game and coming in at ten oclock... lmao soo we go to the mother fucking game. and everyone there iss like heyyy come to kennys heeyyyy its going to be a huge drunk party. soo tish basically turns to me and is like candace we have to go. no questions. i was like FUCK YES WE ARE. soo lil mia and steph (steph that has never snuck out b4 or done anything bad) get a ride a fucking midnight to go to this kids housee. well steveeeee was going to another party.. fisherss. soo we were like dude why the hell nottt go there first. we get there and drew is allllll and i mean alll over tish is fucking hilarious. and after like a half hour we leave with a lil bit of alcohol in our systems. ohh yesss i forgot brian comes. in the carrr. hahah we make out. i barly know this kiddd. ohh well he was cool. anyways we get to kennys house. i go straight to the frig. lmao. mia andddd steph are like tryin to smoke pot and they are like drunk. steph by this point was wasted. sam and lexi were already there because they went straight from the game. i seee lexi and she is like crawling on the floorrr lmao it was hilariouss i wish i couldve taken a video of that shitt. sam was pretty drunk tooooooo it was soo boring there we just called steve again and he picked us up=] briannn was cute. well i was drunk. . . lmao we get back to the house tyler is passed outtt and dealanna or however the fuck you spelll her name was puking everyy where... thennnn my memoryy starts to get fuzzy. ummmm. mia told me that drew and steph made outtt. and tish andd drew were all over the placeee. alsoooo steph like passed out forrr a lil. sooo it was getting close to the time we had to leave and steve just walks outtt. WTF. i follow him and jump on his car and im like DONT LEAVE YOUR OUR RIDE HOME> they left. i went back inn... i start fliping outtt. i down sooo much shittt thenn i call themmm. no answer. five seconds later they walk in. STEVEN i fucking loove that mother fucker. we leave. tish ends up pushing mia up the drivewayyyy and once we get to the windowwwww and go in. LMAO CHEVY IS AT THE FUCKING BAR DRINKIN. we walk in casually. he looks at me and is like wow your wasted. im like wow im the soberest one here. we alll go upstairs. annd go to bed. **next day** wheres steph? i ask tish. hahahahahahah she was passed out on the fucking toilet. wowww. i love my life

sitting here.

First Blog Entry. woah hoo. i cant believe it fucking 1am and im writing in this damn blog... i havent even done my homework yet. matt? matt who. im done with that shit. and nathan is over withh as well. HELLO chris andd todd. chris is adorableee. and toddd. is excitinggg. both have traits that the other does not have.... chris is here and about to hang out with me where todd cant i could only hang outwith him on weekends. todd is experinceddd and chriss welll isnt. lets just say they both have a lil good n bad in them. ---- but to the real point this blog isnt just to talk about guys in my life its to help sort thro all my problems thro daily life. like should i really invite danielle to my party? i mean im kinda friends with her... but after what happened last year..... well we all kno what happened should i forgive her? or just forget her... somtimes i dont mean to act "fake" towards people butt. i cant stay mad at somone for long anddd it tends to get caught up with me.... ive been called named my whole life made fun of by my bestfriends and my worst enemys. so this blog is for everyone who said those things and i never said anything back. i was being nice. okay. i hate it. i dont hate you. im sorry. why am i sorry. idk. ill con tomorrow